time goes by.. so slowly..

it takes time.. i know..

i've been thru it before..

but it's easier said than done..

sometimes.. it doesn't seems real..

but i know it is..

missing? or just simply not used to it?

i dunno..

but it's still affecting..

to a certain extent..

although it doesn't seem like i'm showing it..

time.. time.. time..

pass faster, please..

finally.. but what now?

A response. yes. finally.

A decision. sort of. seems like it.

So.. now what?

Lots of things went through my mind.

But can't put anything into place.

Blank.

Can't even dig out a single word to reply.

Why? over an sms? is that how it's supposed to be?

Even so.. what was the conclusion?

Friends?

yes. probably. but how?

Without settling it properly.

A talk? As in a real talk?

Yeah. Probably that would help.

I really dunno.

Time.

Yes. I'll need it to think through.

It really feels like a dream.

Once so real.

But it's time to wake up.

love perspectives

Once heard someone said this before,

"You are happy alone.

If you were to accept another person into your life,

you have to be happier.

More than being alone.

If not, why not stay single?"

That's true.

And I simply love this quote,

"True love does not come by finding the perfect person,

but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."

-Jason Jordon-

Exactly what i believe in.

That's probably why true love is so hard to find.

this week

this week is finally here..

really no idea what to expect..

presentation on wed and assignment due on fri..

must stay focus no matter what..

but can't help but wonder what the decision will be..

BREATHE!!!

something worth being happy for.. admist all..

Really happy for you my dear friend!

That you have finally found your happiness!

Glad that i'm one of the first few..

Wait.. First in fact.. I must proudly say..

To share this joy with you!

I'm sure you made the right choice.

Rmb what I told you?

"You won't know how long you'll love him.
Or rather, how long he'll love you.
As long as there's a mutual love for each other,
treasure every single day of it."

I'm so happy for you!

Really.

To whom it may concern.

Rmb what i told you before ah!

DO NOT DISAPPOINT ME!

If not..

You shall see!

All the best to you two!

Stay in love.

Do treasure every moment that you share!

when will it be?

The wait has begun.

Not for long.

But almost endless as it seems.

Imagine a prisoner on death penalty waiting to be executed.

How bout a pig waiting to be slaughtered?

Funny as it may sound.

Isn't that the case now?

Nothing else but wait.

But this does not equate to "I don't care".

Just merely holding on to that last bit of trust.

That he won't disappoint further.

Time is what was requested.

Not too much to ask for.

Well, understood and respected.

So when will it be?

We shall wait.. and see..

Romeo, Romeo, where are you?

"Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes"

Is there really the existence of fairytale?

"Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come"

I would love to believe there is..

But..

I'm still waiting...

It's not the first time anyway..

It has been proven again.

I was right about my doubts all along.

Oh well, who's to blame?

Not him.

So it must be me.

Can't help buy feel extremely lousy!

There wasn't even a chance to prove myself.

It's just so unfair!

Maybe it's not meant to be in the first place.

"Give me some time."

That's what he said.

But we both know the decision is clear enough.

My heart aches.

But I have to be strong.

It's not going to be easy.

I know.

I can do it.

It's not the first time anyway...

Understanding...

UNDERSTANDING!!!

YES.. that's what i've always been.

At least tried to be.

Is it good or bad?

Isn't that a rhetorical question?

"You appear like you dun care!"

That's what some people say.

But I'm just being understanding!

I really am.

It's not easy i know. To strike that balance.

How I wish I can be unreasonable sometimes..

To whine and complain too.

But you have to be understanding!

I'll tell myself.

It's really easier said than done.

So.. who really understands?

Insecurities

I know I shouldn't be feelin this way.

I know I should have faith.

I know he's different from others.

But..

I can't help but feel insecure.

Is it cos i dun trust him?

Or is it cos i dun trust myself?

I don't know.

I really need the confidence now.

To be certain. Yes.

But where are you when i need the assurance now?

Busy? I would love to think and console myself.

But i know it's just an excuse.

To make myself feel better.

Forever it will be.

Should i give in?

Should i not think so much?

Should i trust you?

I really want to..